Saturday....

So Friday ended on a better note, I was still as stressed out as ever........ My mom bought the kids a slip && slide so since it was still warm outside we put it up && sat out with them. My brother got here around 6/6:30. And well..... no surprise I agreed to let him stay here. Just the 2 weeks. I also caved in && talked to Jesse. We hadn't talked. I know that he is skeptical about Michael's "CHANGE" but so am I. It just hurts me, that he acts like that. Do I tell him? NO! I don't because...... I'm always so easily talked out of what I feel. I just feel that I would never not let him take his sister in.... Or help her. I feel stuck I shouldn't have to choose between the one's that I love. The sad part about all this.... is that I feel that in my heart. One day he will leave me because of all this. Which I know it'll be my fault cause I allow it. I've talked to Michael about it before and I told him he will someday cost my family..... my family!